i’m wrong!
i messaged him over msn to remove the photos on shelf and i do not want to hear or see anything related to her …
he apologized and said he has been ignoring the shelf thus he didn’t even realise that the photos are still there..
i don’t know…
i’m still feeling uneasy…
i guess i want some space to myself ..
but i want to be cuddled …
sigh…
how? should i see him after work?
i haven’t been working for the whole day .. i’ve been pretending to work !! 
Last night … i found out something …
Bf’s ex gf’s blog …
it is not very fun to read every happy and sad bits of their stories..
blame it on me..
i was curious..that’s why i went on reading it…
in fact… i read everything …
including some private photos… i saw them all …
I’m feeling bad now…
he told me the reason why they broke up was because this girl had another guy … true enough… but he said he was DUMPED by her..
he is such a sweetie..tried to protect her.. he said so.. but the truth is the other way round …
they were together for 3 years… and spent very happy times together..
from the way she described… * i do not want to compare* but i feel that we are not at that stage yet and we MIGHT NOT ever be as happy as them last time…
she is a total opposite of me.. I’m not outgoing , I’m not sporty , I’m not a top student etc etc…. but she is.. she shares more in common with the bf than me …
she mentioned this ” he said i am the most self-fish person ” but does he really think so ? nah….
bf told me .. ” everyone is self-fish” he had learnt to protect himself…
i guess he had been thru quite a bit..
with me now.. maybe he is more of a mature man … he tends to think more than the old happy go lucky man …
but … my heart is aching now..
i do not know how to face him …
especially i still see THEIR ( him and her) PHOTO at the selves every time i visit his room!
this is not the first time…. i also accidentally opened his photo file at his desktop … and saw all their happy moments…
i know I’m easily jealous … but ….
i don’t know.. and i don’t want to be her replacement …
Darling, are you treating me as a replacement to her just to mend your heart? are you really happy with me? Do you really mean it each time u say “i love you baby”?
i have too many uncertainties in mind now…. and the fact that he is still displaying her photos and belongings around , does that mean anything ?
i tried not to think and i went to bed early … but that doesn’t help .. i was still thinking and am still thinking now…
One night we bought Leong char ( herbal tea) after dinner.. it was on promo , buy 1 and 2nd one will be 50% off..
so we bought one sugar cane and one Ya Sei Mei (24 something) … that sellar said it is good to cure heaty
we drank the sugarcane on the way home..
before i slept , i told him that i’m thirsty..he went to get me the Ya Sei Mei ..
i drank one sip…
then i shouted …
“help help BITTER!!!!”
He immediately ran back to the kitchen n made me RIBENA ! hahahah
bleah .. no more Ya Sei Mei …
according to the bf , Ya sei mei is the same as Wong Lo Kat.. issit? i don’t know! taste horrible!! but he manage to finish the whole bottle ( 500 ml) ..yucks !
* HE CLAIMS THAT HE IS OVER PAMPERING ME! DO YOU THINK SO?
The title says it all..
but no dinner , no present , no celebration at all because his parents are here…
i do hope that we can all go out and celebrate together but .. it is not the right time yet …
Happy First Anniversary to him and myself!
* yes he can’t remember this important day because we got together under a weird situation and i cannot even remember the date until i check my calender! hehe*
My good friend , Preeti will know this … 
I used to hope that my bf will be more loving , will sayang me , pamper me , give me cute nick names, show me some affection etc etc… but i never get them from previous bf(s)…
now … with mr.K …
i get mushy mushy nicknames ….
Sometimes i do get mixed up with our nicknames because i address him as …
Actually … we started off by me being Dear and him being Darling .. but .. god knows what happened.. we started to mix the names around ( role reversal?) hahahah …
He said we both can be each other’s BABY .. then we’ll be like the cartoon characters in Rugrats!
Ok .. i hope that your goosebumps are not standing up now!
The other day the boyfriend was telling me how he spend his monthly income. To my surprise a very big chunk of it goes to his insurance payment. I started to question him why is he paying so much and what is he covered.
After some investigation , he confessed! he did not do sufficient homework in to compare auto insurance quotes before he bought! He simply met up with an agent and bought whatever he recommended!
He claims that because he was rather innocent at that time and he just got a large amount of bonus, thus he did not think much . But now , he is definitely regretting and told me to do sufficient comparison before i buy an insurance policy!
Ask around, i am sure most of us have worn a pair of School shoes before. I used to hate it because they always look dull either white or black and it does not come with any design at all. Plus all students will look the same being in the same outfit/uniform and standard colored shoes! Well, of course i do understand that it is the main purpose to have standardized dress code , to ensure discipline and tidiness in school.
But being a rebellious one back in school time , i have always wanted to look a little different from others just to make myself stand out in the crowd!How did i do that , you must be asking. Let me share my secret with you! Actually it is easy to stand out in the crowd by just changing your school shoes to Startrite brand!
I am a loyal customer to them as i wore their shoes since primary one till year 11 in school. They are not just cool looking but they are also one of the most comfortable school shoes in the market! I used to wear them during sports too.
The other day , i saw a post by my friend stating that she bought a pair of branded white school shoes , just a week later she started complaining about it saying that it is not comfortable yet expensive! after that she listened to my recommendation and gotten herself a pair of Startrite, and obviously she came back with positive comments.
Startrite is the only brand that i will recommend and trust. Not only school shoes , i always recommend their girls shoes too because they look so adorable. I can never resist myself everything upon seeing them and ended up buying for my little cousins.
This is the latest pair that i bought for my cousin! Cute right??
of course the big girl which is me gets more shoes too but too bad she is out of the stage where she needs to wear school shoes! Thus, only heels for her!
He was busy the whole day yesterday planning for his evening company event…
i didn’t get to talk to him after him sending me off to work.. normally we’ll chat over MSN ..
but yesterday , even sending him sms , i did not get any reply..he was really busy ..
i gave him a call at about 10.30 pm .. he didn’t answer…
till 12 ish am.. he called.. saying that he is on his way to pick me up ..
when i saw him .. he was all drunk…
he can’t even walk straight but he knew how to direct the cab driver to his house…
after that he wanted to wonder around downstairs his house, i got scared as it is the Ghost month , then i saw some praying things on the floor.. i got even more frightened! then i ignored his nonsense , i just dragged him to go home! he is quite heavy!bleah!
reached his house.. i had to strip him and change him.. wipe him clean with baby wipes .. get him water…
was quite mad .. cos i dont know how to handle a drunkard and he was all nuts..talking nonsense…
he complaint that he wasn’t feel good in the middle of the night … asked for water.. asked me to check his schedule for today … blablabla.. luckily he didn’t puke!but i placed his bin next to him , just in case accident happens!
and slept through the night till 6 ish am .. he woke me up to get him water and isotonic drink.. he must be super dehydrated!
i went to work without him.. he continued sleeping till 9 ish .. only went to work at 10ish..
sigh …
I am not just a failure in my job , i’m also a bad gf… do not know how to jaga the bf …
crib bedding is very important.It is made for both cradles and cribs. I think it will be the first item that i will buy for my baby in future! It is important because it has to be functional, durable and grow with my baby into the toddler years.So, a lot of consideration has to be taken into account.The bedding fabric is important too because i want my baby to live in a beautiful room/bed! Not to forget the cute coordinating mobiles! I want them to come along with music to accompany my baby to bed! I can imagine my baby’s room now, i will want to provide the best to my baby. I always imagined a pink baby room but the boyfriend said “no” because he prefers a baby boy than a girl! he wants to train him to be good at sports just like him.
Today . once again i am thinking twice about this job ..
seriously… i admit that I’m not the right person to take up such heavy amount of stressful workload…
or simply that i am still not putting all my heart/effort into this job …
i feel dreaded to come to work everyday… i can’t wait till 6 pm , i am usually the first to leave…
I tell you..
I have to handle Marketing for KL , SG and Australia
I have to handle H.R for SG - the HR is not as easy as what you thought! i have to call them fix time , update system , update at least 4 people for each update, then kena scoldings for no reason because i DO NOT know my CEO’s timetable.. but i need to schedule his timetable in KL but the KL people will make a big fuss out due to the timings blablabla… i would prefer to update them and finalise before i update every single person to reduce confusion but the way my CEO wants it is that , we need to update EVERYONE at any point of time!!!!!
I have to update the system for previous clients’ list which is in a mess !!
i really don’t have the time to even breathe…
I’m tired…
my daily schedule
9.00 - candidates come in, fill up forms
9.30- test
10.30 - collect 1st papers , mark
11.30 - another batch of candidates come in , fill forms
- collect 2nd papers from 1st batch of candidates and ask them to leave … compile with all previous emails, notification sent by my CEO , scan one by one ( some must be coloured) , then notify KL to print for CEO , let CEO , COO, ED, PA to know as well also to update SG and KL’s systems as well as CEO’s timetable!
12.00 - test for batch two begins , my lunch!
1.00- collect 1st papers , mark , distribute 2nd paper
2.00 - collect 2nd paper , 3rd batch of candidates comes…
same routine … till 4 pm …
in the mean time , i need to do my marketing stuffs, i need to even write an advert! sometimes , i even need to handle funds operations’ job!it is difficult having to juggle my work between all these crap…
i guess no one will understand , you guys might think it is very minimal but … it is not..really…
and every morning , be ready for some bombastic emails …. everyday you kick start with an angry email…
am i getting used to it? i doubt so…
is this the right job for me ? i dont know…
i just want to be in my comfy zone…
What’s wrong today?
the grumpy girl was cheered up by her Director , she went down for coffee with her colleague to complain again and share their anger.. she was fine!
till lunch…
happily went down to one of the nicer restaurants..
but this SMART LADY …
there’s a stack of saucer( black in colour) at the counter…
if you are smart.. shouldn’t you take out one of the saucer and pour your sauce in??? (since it is a common shared sauce and saucer , everyone was queue-ing for it) …
she squeezed in some BLACK SOY SAUCE on the stack of black coloured saucer and left it there then went to get other stuffs..
i didn’t know there’s soy sauce , i took it up ….
everything splashed on me!!!
she just said “oh no….” then she left!
come on , the dark soy sauce was over my sleeves, my shirt, my skirt, my leg.. and she just left ???!?!?!?!?
thankfully the waiter and waitresses are very nice.. they let me into the cashier area (there’s a sink there) to wash up..gave me clean cloth, detergent ….
i spent a good 10 minutes washing up!!!
where’s that lady ? gone to dunno where.. didn’t even apologize!!
thankfully my pink shirt, charcoal coloured skirt , beige heels are free from dark soy sauce now!
or i’ll KILL her!!
uncivilised Singaporean working lady! dont even have the courtesy to apologize!
I’m not mad that she left the saucer there and got me BLACK … just mad that she didn’t even apologize!!!!
Two things happened yesterday and it totally ruined my goody mood and my initial plan of going to shop till i drop…
First!
at 5.45 pm - i received an email from my COO who is stationed in KL … asked me for the KL’s Advert’s content! i was like “huh? KL’s advert?” hello? i’m based in SG not KL ! but fine.. i pretended to be nice to comment on the adverts proposed by the advertising company then i asked her what she meant by content? the wordings or the title? i also explained to her , i’m not familiar with KL’s stuffs and most importantly i was NOT around during the meeting they had in KL , she just sent me the minutes and proposed adverts then asked me to settle it?! i was like … argh!!!!!!
* very smart right? hire me with one pay but expects me to do job for three person ( KL , SG and Aussie) and i don’t even have a weekend!!!! mad!!
at 6ish pm - after i sent out my email , she shoot back another email ( yes everyone in the company knows that she LOVES to send MASS emails to shoot people) … she made a big fuss saying that i did not highlight the chances in my daily report! then i sent it back to her ..saying that - there’s NO changes today thus no highlights… as simple as that!
at 6.30 pm - i called KL office to find out more about the KL’s advert ( she attended the meeting) ..she explained to me blablabla..
finally i left home at about 7 ism pm … with anger …
luckily mom called ( i think she’s unlucky) .. i complain complain complain… till i hop into the train …. felt so much better after releasing my anger…
reached home… turned on lappie .. check facebook! dang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what the hell?!!?!? why this guy uses MY PHOTO as his own picture!??!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??
argh…. i know him , he is one the gym trainers at my fitness club … but how can you anyhow steal people’s photo ????
now you know why i hardly post my photos up to the web!!
after the bf’s soccer .. accompanied him for dinner (more like supper) then before i slept.. i was whining all the way … till this morning .. didn’t sleep well at all … told him that i wanna quit my job …. but he said it is not time etc etc…he is still poor …
but today back in the office …
my Singapore Exec Director returned me with a big smile..she must be in her jolly mood! and she came to me and gossiped about the KL’s COO !!
this made my day …
but how long will i remain in this company , i am having doubts with my previous statement that i will want to stay long with this firm ….
life is tough, right?
Remember i was out for the company’s AGM on Saturday?
I was the minglers where i have to mingle around blablabla..
after the mingling session , everyone went into the hall and waited for the voting then presentation!
I was the camera lady thus i was walking around..
suddenly my colleague told me to beware of this OLD LADY (Shown in the ablove photo: 60+ years old , wore lousy clothings , doesn’t look like any of the shareowners at all ).. i saw her collecting the note pads, pen and bottled waters from the seats .. then she brought them out of the hall..she then proceed to the basement and left them there.. and return to the hall again to “Steal” more … hahah yet she pretended through out the presentation , nodding her head as though she understood everything my CEO was explaining!! argh!!
both colleague and I were watching her! Suddenly came another man , also similar age.. he did the same too ! *Sorry no photo of him*
I ignored them as the presentation was still on and it won’t be nice to kick them out of the hall
then i went out of the hall where lunch will be served. There’s this lady again who has been sitting there since the beginning of the event , i remembered asking her if she wants to go in, but she said ” she is letting her son in , thus she is waiting for him” fine… then i overheard her conversation saying that she went to peep on those food , and only fried rice will be served! the way she said it made it sounded like “cheh, fried rice only! ”
After the event , she was one of the first fews that went to grab those fried rice! she managed to grab 2 large plates as high as a lil’ mountain! she then started to TA PAU ( pack) .. she packed the first plate into a plastic bag and kept in her bag… when she was about to ta pau the second plate.. she knew i was watching her .. she pretended to eat.. i mean she was eating of course .. but .. that’s not her main intention..
this is the old lady with her half eaten fried rice.. original amount was double! and for your information , this is the 2nd plate! * she took 4 plates in all*
while i was watching her … the old uncle just now who “stole” papers, pen and water also started ta pau-ing! This uncle is even better.. he ta paued them in plastic bag then wrap over with news papers , like those packet economical mee/meehoon .
Back to the old lady , there’s this share-owner, stood next to me , suddenly said out aloud ” u know she is ta pau-ing the rice” i smiled and said “ya i know” .. she then continued! apparently , she was at another AGM the day before , The old lady also did the same by ta- pauing everything!
Those workers in that hotel scolded her but she just ignored!
Well, we are civilised people , so i thought , since she is already so old , maybe she is really hungry! but later on , upon hearing all sorts of stories ( where she ta pau-ed up to 4 plates of fried rice) .. and we order for 750 pax yet the rice was just enough for about 500 people!
Just imagine how much these old people makan-ed and ta-pau-ed !!
Since i have photos of them ….
hahah… boss said ” next year’s AGM , we will post this up at the entrance bann them from going near the room”
I can’t believe that this can happen! the AGM is held at Sime Darby Convention Centre, it is in the middle of no where, not easily accessible by public transport! and how come they are aware of this AGM ? who sent them there ? why do they need papers and pen ? there’s our company’s logo there , they can’t be selling them!
Anyways , wish them all the best in “Stealing” food!
Delsey luggage is the only brand my whole family will choose when it comes to selecting luggages! Why ? the price is not too high and the best is that the quality is good. I still remember our very first Delsey luggage was bought 10 years back and until today it is still in good shape. And once i got a cheaper alternative , about $50 cheaper , i bought it and it only lasted me for two trips then the wheel started to give some problem , finally the wheel can’t work anymore. And i really regretted from that time and from then onwards, i have been recommending Delsey luggage to everyone!
” Exec. Director ,There’s a good investment event this weekend, i am too busy to come down to Singapore to attend myself, Both you and the Analyst should try to make out time for that if possible. As for Min , please let her know that it will be good if she can attend BOTH days.
C.E.O “
This is the message i got! sigh… means i have to work this weekend ( both Saturday and Sunday!!!!!10 am - 7 pm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
oh no……………………………..
Do you like my new pair of purple running shoes???
TADA!! Not again, you guys must be wondering! where this girl gets so much money to shop so often? and why she has unfinished shopping list? hhehehe
Actually i was just saying i need a pair of proper running shoes for gym trainings on Saturday! then on Sunday , the boyfriend suggested to spend our day hunting for it! so off we went! also to get shoe rack since i have too many shoes and no shoe rack!
This is what i got after shopping.. was considering either this or Nike .. but in the end i got this because Nike is a lil’ too common and my previous pair was Nike .. so for a change i got this Adidas!
My main reason getting this is because it is very light in weight! but the bf said i should get something heavier so that i can tonne up my legs! but nah… i need to carry it in the morning to gym and to work then sometimes after work , i still carry it around for dinner .. my previous pair was just too heavy!
Guess how much is it ? not too expensive .. SGD 120 ++
*didn’t get the shoe rack in the end! cos i thought if i were to move out with sis and her bf , then i might as well buy it later*
Cute right? this is my lunch !
Dunno what’s with the “S” on its body!
This one has a “H”
Ok … i better get going .. need to paint my nails before i head out! tata
This year round, it is a total new experience!
I got KEYS to his house! woohoo… i can sneak into the house anytime!
What did I do yesterday ?
we went to see house!
Why view the house? no no no I’m not getting married yet ! no no no i have no intention of moving out with the bf yet … it is for my Sister and her Boyfriend! Her boyfriend’s lease is expiring soon , and sister had quited her job so is coming to Sg to work … so we(Sis , her bf and me) might all move out to a unit ourselves! but .. the rental is so EXPENSIVE!!! we saw 2 units :
1. 2 bedroom , super small , but quite convenient ..SGD2.5k
2.3 bedroom, super big , a bit less convenient compare to no.1 but very clean ..SGD 2.8K ..
so both bf and I came to conclusion no.2 is better. but we’ve offered our price to the agent - SGD 2.5k for 1 year lease or SGD2.2k for 2 years!
Later on we went back to his house again , he played his Dota and i watched my drama till be both fell asleep! hehehe…
Woke up and off for dinner at Bugis with friends..yucks!!! don’t go to this Chong Qing Ma Lat HotPot there… not nice!!!! SGD18++ per head not including drinks but taste horrible!! bleah!!
and now the bf is feeling unwell .. dunno if it is the food! i didn’t eat much so there shouldn’t be any effect on me!
After that , we went shopping in our stinky clothings ( yes… smell of the pork , beef, lamb, fish , balls, etc etc)
Did i get to see the National Parade? of course not! but i heard the sound of the fireworks! hahahaa….
So is this a memorable National Day? nah.. just another ordinary Saturday ! Or maybe a day to mark my status being the KEY HOLDER to his house? hahahah
Last year’s 9th of August , i remembered clearly that i went out with the boyfriend ( ex-bf now) to Marina/Suntec area.. we went to catch a movie then dinner at Waraku and saw some air crafts flying around and off we left the place and went home!
I still remembered that he cursed some1 while he was driving…
that’s all i can remember about National Day 2007 …
Tomorrow , 9th of August 2008 … the man by lying by my side is a different man.. not trying to compare them… but of course i did had some happy times with that ex-bf that will remain as a memory in my heart…
This man now , is the man i heart … i wish to be able to share his joy and sorrow … until the end of the day but … whether will that happen , no1 knows other than God ..
What are we doing tomorrow? i have no idea! i don’t even know what are we doing tonight not to mention tomorrow!
i wanted to go to the beach but thought about it , this is the 7th month of the Lunar Calender , so i better stay home to be safe!
alright … let’s see what will happen tomorrow and i shall update my blog by then !
Take care… Happy National Day to Singapore!
** referring to my 2007’s post with the link above , i mentioned that i need to be hugged and loved! with this bf i get the all! he would kiss and hug me when we meet up … i find it really sweet.. it feels like he misses me alot after a long day … i get morning and g’night kisses … he would hug me the whole night … sayang me and love me… i really hope that he will be the man in my life…**
Went to watch Money No(t) Enough 2 last night ..such a long show but the content is very true!! it is really how a Singaporean behaves/thinks/act etc etc…
had some good laugh and a good cry too!
but … again …. i was pretty tired half way through as it is a 175 min show!
Is this better or the first show betteR? i have no idea … both alright la..but there are too many graphics in this show.. don’t like too much graphics as they look FAKE!
ok . back to work !