The - BlurAngel -

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she used to be evil and all

but lately she is a changed person..

she is different.. she became friendly and caring …

Just 3 days ago, she sms-ed me to ask me to meet up with her for lunch , but i can’t! so we decided to go for tea.. in the end she was busy.. so we finally headed for breakkie…

well… it was a bit awkward to have breakkie with my big big boss…but it was ok..she’s nice, concern and all ..

except for the fact that she wanted to me to COMMIT myself to the bank! she doesn’t want me to leave, she wants me to give myself and the bank a chance … she wants me to grow with the bank…

So, have i decided to stay ?

no… i don’t know YET!!

** yes , i adore her fashion sense and her branded bags/shoes!! i wish i could own them too!!! but looks like i just gotta continue being poor and wear/use cheap stuffs!!! 

It has been more than a month since i last went shopping happily ..

today .. i just cannot take the stress anymore..

and i went to Orchard Road!

it was great fun !

i bought an expensive dress! hahah… for a friend’s wedding tomorrow!

and wanted to get a matching bag .. but can’t get any nice ones..

so i shall continue shopping tomorrow.. hopefully i can get a nice matching clutch or bag!!

Well… over the 2 weeks , i have been really stressed up at work such that i work from 9 am - 6 pm , only max 2 toilet breaks in between and 15 minutes lunch break or even none!!!!

today , i decided to give myself a break thus i went to run some errands and went for lunch with sister … it was a quick lunch but it was all good!

hehe… after work i continued to slack a bit .. and then went shopping!

woohoo.. life’s great! retail therapy is good too!

P/s: i’ll show u guys my dress soon! :) 

OK .. let me show off a bit here can? since i cannot be proud in real life …

I’ve achieved my SGD5 million target yesterday!! which was hitted in less than 2 weeks! i have 2 more weeks to go to earn all my commision!

Am i lucky or what? today a guy just came in and invested SGD 1 million …. heheh .. yesterday i had 2 millions … Next week i have more $$$ coming in …

Boyfriend thinks that i am happy and motivated to work in this bank ..

Family think that if i am comfortable in the bank , i should continue …

My colleagues and friends support the idea of me staying …

but…

my concern is still there…

do i want to be able to buy L.V shoes/bags etc etc but stressful OR be poor but get to stay at home and be a poor siu lai lai/tai tai ??

Dunno since when i became a workaholic!

Since i started working , i’ve only went out for lunch once!!! the rest of the time i’ll stay back cos during lunch will be the busiest period for us… which is 11.30 am - 2 pm …Bank then closes at 3.30 pm and i will start to do paper work etc etc …. and try to make a few calls to hit my sales target …

time just seem to pass so fast when i’m busy!!

I’m on leave today but i still went back to work! er.. ok, cos i want to hit my SGD5 million target!!

I may sound kiasu but i want to use this month as my trial period ..whether i will continue being a rich banker or poor teacher will depend on this month’s performance! if i can’t hit my target, then i gotta say bubbye!!

I can’t believe it I’m such a workaholic now! can forgo my M.Cs to go back to office and work , forgo my precious lunch hours to work too!!!

Yeah i have yet to finish my story!

now that I’m sick and on MC till Wednesday , i refuse to go on sick leave!!

why ??

because that bunch of Gossip-ers have been waiting for this day to come!

when i’m not around , they’ll steal and snatch my clients!! how evil?!?!?!?

well… the only thing i can do is just to watch them like a watch dog, be on duty from 9.30-3.30pm! don’t even want to go to the washroom/lunch!

by doing this , those Gossip-ers will not have a chance to step into my territory to snatch my clients away !

they’re not just Gossip-ers , they’re also evil people who loves to snatch people’s clients away especially when they see me doing well in sales!!

argh!!!!!

p/s: last week they managed to snatch 4 of my clients away when i was not around! see?! this is how evil they are!!! 

and i know they gossip around saying that i try to conquer my territory! but but but … this is MY TERRITORY! so , u guys have no rights to step in and interrupt me with my clients/potential clients! 

i just want to hit my SGD5 million target, that’s it! leave me alone pls…

Since i started work. i’ve been good trying to avoid all sorts of gossips and nonsense..

all i wanted to do was just to focus in my work , get things done, earn money and that’s it!

but .. things are hard on us right?

there’s this bunch of gossip-ers in my work place.. in fact we’re from the same intake …

Bankers are a bunch of losers! sorry i know i’m mean but come on , i’m a banker too so i’m a loser as well …

everyone change when it comes to MONEY! friends can become enemy , enemy can become friends.. as long as they feel that u r useful they’ll pretend to be nice to u but behind your back they’ll curse/gossip bout u !

for no reason i become part of the gossips too! i didn’t do anything wrong ok?!

haihs..

pls  God.. pls give me a peaceful workplace.. all i want is just to focus in my job and excel in it!!

Finally a month have passed..

i am moving back to my place …

well this month staying with boyfriend has given me a very good chance to get to know this man better…

we did argue in this month but we think it is good that we are learning to understand each other more.. this month is pretty bad for both of us cos of work .. he then realised anger on me .. and vise versa..

however, everything is good …

i’m on M.C till Wednesday .. so i will have loads of time to unpack  and clean up …

but i’ll miss staying with the boyfriend in this little room!!

Working in the bank means i have to wear uniform , even when i am executive/manager!my uniform is a red red one-piece sleeveless dress plus a coat ( white ) with a scarf !! i look like an air hostess lo! some say China Air , some say AIr Asia , some say some western country’s air lines too …..

Day 1 - i wore normal clothings to work and change at the bank

Day 2 - i was lazy so i wore my ANGPAU RED DRESS to work! at the bus stop , this auntie look at me from head to toe and toe to head again! i thought she must be thinking why i wear so red la… nvm … she smiled to me , so i smiled back la …

then boarded the bus , she happened to sit next to me  ..

conversation was conversed in Mandarin plus Hokkien

She : you very very fair hor ??

me : hheheshe: wah , miss , your dress very red hor?

me: heheh ya lo

She : miss , u look so young, working already ar? how old are you ? 21 ?

me : no la.. i’m 25 already ..ya working ..

She : as a ?

me : banker

she : wah..banker good la..earn alot of money hor?

continue asking about my income , where i stay , my edu level , how Mainland/Viet wives are not good etc etc 

She : u local ?

me : no , Malaysian !

She : Wah, good ar!! Malaysians good!!! miss ar , i got a son , u want to know him ??

me : er…

She : he is 40 years old!!!

!@#!(#$*%@$&@(#

After the bank closes at 3.30 pm , i told my boss i need to run some errands and see the doctor so i left …

and only came back at 5.30 pm ( off work at 6 pm )

then my big big boss message me at close to 6pm asking for a meeting …

die la..

i was already on the bus reaching home …

how to go back for meeting ?

so i just told her lo i am on my way home blablabla…

she was cool with it ..

yet send me email to ask me to take care …

later on my other boss also texted me to ask me to take care …

well …

i think my bosses are really nice people …. * i hope it is not because i bring in good sales that’s why they love me …*

then came home relax abit then headed to Wala-Wala , Holland V for dinner and drinks cum bf’s SIL’s birthday !

i was super tired but have to give face lo.. i went there.. met the birthday girl and boyfriend’s cousin who came all the way from Sydney …

after about 3 hours i cannot tahan and left!

now i’m sitting in front of the comp bloggin! woohoo….

i prefer being at home then to entertain others since i’ve been SMILING the whole day in the bank .. tiring u knoe?!

why ??

cos two colleagues kena-d !

yesterday 1 guy kena - then quarantined 50 people from his department

today another fella kena - then quarantined another 40 over people!

now everyone wears a mask around! hahahah

and i’m coughing so badly .. so went to see a Dr..

she was so scared of me that she wore DOUBLE GLOVES!!!!!

hehehe…

then she gave me 5 days leave!!! she wants me to stay at home!

by the way i’m just having a respiration tract infection .. i doubt i need 5 days leave!

i still want to work to fit my SGD 5 million target!!* first time in my life i so GIAN to work!! * 

can’t beleive it that i’m still hanging on to my job as a banker ..

i mean I’ve only started working officially for 2 days!! and amazingly ….

I’ve closed SGD800,000 deals and I’ll be getting close to SGD1500 worth of commission!!!! mind u , in just 2 days ok??? and i add that onto my basic of SGD2xxx .. so this month ( i mean in 2 days , i’ve achieve almost SGD4xxx )

however, i don’t know … i don’t know if i should leave and go to become a poor teacher and earn a fixed amount of SGD2xxx  monthly with less than SGD 200 increment a year??

or stay with the bank, grow with the bank , do well , earn well for about 3 years then buy nice house , nice cars, shop and all ???

i think boyfriend has got a point, selling (without pressuring people) is part of my nature … so why waste it , right???

i’m predicting if i do well everyday ( just like the past 2 days , i will be earning at least a SGD8xxx this month , that’s like almost RM20,000 !!! i can place down payment for a car lo!!!!

that’s insane..

i’ll need to reconsider since money is involved and i want to be rich!!

We celebrated our 11th month anniversary 3 days back …

After his visit to the Chinese singseh to urut his injured hamstring , we had a cheap dinner nearby ( we shared a mixed rice and iced milo)

then headed to M Hotel, Tanjung Pagar!

choi! we didn’t go and sleep at M hotel la!!! we went to J Bar , 9th floor of M Hotel !

Quite a nice place and drinks weren’t too expensive!!

As usual i order some mocktail and the boyfriend will have his alcoholic drinks!

We spent some good quality time at j Bar before heading home to SLEEP! come on , it was a week day ok?! tired la!!!

no present , no big celebration but … i’m happy! can’t wait to celebrate our ONE YEAR anniversary!!!

I’m beginning to “hate” my job … such that it gives me tonnes of pressure till i can’t sleep and eat well!!

all i look forward is 6 pm everyday to go home! or to the weekends where i can enjoy myself but most of the time i still have to study , so weekend is just another ordinary day/s for me!

But i’ve slowly developed a liking to chill with my friends/colleagues in the pubs/bar … i still don’t drink/dance/smoke but i feel that it is a very very good Way to build rapport with them … after-all , working is all about building relationships to make things work smoothly right??

However, one thing i really don’t like about some of my colleagues is that they are super childish ok? i mean they always gossip about others then get angry then etc etc.. haihs.. come on la.. we’re all adults , right?

thankfully the group of colleagues whom i mix around with are more mature and we’re all attached, so all we do is just work , hang out , and relax..

so far , we’ve been all good , no arguments , just happy go lucky lo …

ok…  that’s one bad thing about working with all young people ( average age is only 23-4)

also , i’m glad that my boss looks highly on me … that’s why i’m upset since I am leaving the bank soon …. i’m going to go into a field I’ve been wanting to go and try …

I’ll proof myself in this field ….

Is there really wrong from right?
right from wrong?
Who’s to tell you what you should or shouldn’t do?

Who’s to judge?
you?
me?
God?

Or is it all just perspectives?
Conscience maybe?
Norm?
Culture?
the..Bible?

But the bible doesn’t detail every single act to the detail?
then how?

I admit i’ve been posting rubbish posts lately as i do not have the time and mood to post personal stuffs…

tonite .. i am suppose to be studying *yes , again!* but …ended up arguing with the boyfriend …

and now i’m still sobbing away ….

i didn’t want to cry in front of him..so i rushed to the bathroom to “Shower” , turned on the tap and stood underneath the shower… while i cried out aloud…. this is one bad thing about staying together, u do not have a place to yourself …. after “showering” i still have to come back to the room and see him ….

well… it is actually a very small matter but i guess we both are pretty upset and annoyed over our own problems (= work) … so … yah….

i hope tomorrow will be a better day ….

i feel like going out for a walk but i know it is dangerous …

times like that makes me feel like going home … but no1 will be home as mum and dad will be in Batu Pahat for Grand-aunty’s wake ….

R.I.P , Grand Aunty

He is so mad with his boss lately till the extend that he took half a day off to do nothing!!!

hahha.. he ended up watching anime, play game, go for facial and hot stone massage …. not to forget he also signed up a massage package!! hheeh i can soon go for a massage for “free”!! woohoo!!

and on that night, we headed to city hall for dinner.. quite a nice chinese restaurant! i love the Pork RIbs Hot Pot! the soup is awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He is actively searching for a job! really hope that he can get a good job that suits him very very soon!

Boyfriend bought me two pairs of Swarovski Crystals’ Jeans!!

I love them!!

They’re having a promo, where you get S$100 off the 2nd pair of regular priced jeans, that’s why i got two!

hehe…

My dear boyfriend is so sweet! he would never spent more than S$50 on a pair of jeans for himself but he spend hundreds on my pair of jeans!!

He loves seeing me in my new jeans!! that’s what he says! hehehe

Yucks!! guess what?!

i bought a box of Red Globe grapes from them.. it is quite costly ok?! but .. it turned out to be disgusting!

the skin is hard, the fruit is not fresh and it has seeds in it!! bleah…..

i miss those fresh grapes from Aussie!!

Since i moved into the boyfriend’s house, i don’t get to savour much fresh fruits! that’s so sad … hahah i’m just plain lazy to buy and cut them !!

So far so good i must say ..

i’ve developed a good relationship with a few ( quite a few i must say) colleagues! they’re nice but let’s pray hard that they won’t change after we get into the real working world as we will all be competitors then…

I wish i can have more time with the company and them but i think i’ve sort of made up my mind to leave and pursue my lil’ “passion” in life ….

But i’m still waiting for final confirmation before announcing to the world and tender my resignation!!

She is weird…

On Friday, she wanted to see everyone of us.. we expected it to be a group thingy but.. in the end , she saw others in a big group, but asked to see me and another guy ( my partner, we’re the only two person holding that particular role)…

She saw the guy first before me .. she was nasty to him… 3 first sentence from her were :

1. I heard that you’ve been failing your exams!

2. I can always read and see people very accurately!

3. I don’t see you as the right person to hold this position!

Alamak! after hearing those, if i’m the guy, i’ll immediately resign!!! but he is tough, he is good, i’m sure he’ll prove it to her that she’s wrong!!

as for me .. she was a 180 degrees changed person!! she was nice things , told me about my job scope, encourage me, tell me that she sees me as a potential relationship manager in privileged banking etc etc….

Now i’m confused! i wonder which is her true personality!!!

p/s: i’m still thinking if doing sales my cup of tea!!