Some friend asked me if that issue had affected both of us ?

at first i thought , maybe it had affected a lil..

but one night …

we had a lil’ phone conversation before he went to bed …

me : ” will u still love me if the result is positive?”

him :” are u loving me less after knowing it ?”

* i stopped, i think and think … *

me: ” surprisingly NO”

him :” then what makes u think that i won’t love you anymore if you are infected? moreover it is from me!”

me :” er…”

So yeah … i hope that it will not affect us ….

* i am still worried!*

But , i need to thank everyone for their kindness and caring-ness… i am really touched.. i’m sure the bf is happy that i have a bunch of good friends over the blogging era … he is quite amazed with how close i am to some of you despite not meeting up in real life and he knows that this is the only place where i will tell out my true feelings… * shhh… but he doesn’t know the web address and he promised that it will be my lil’ corner where he will not interrupt unless i want him to! but i know he really wants to read!! * …

i have to lock up those posts because it is unfair for him if i were to spread the news over the world. but yeah .. don’t worry! if u want to read them , feel free to drop me a comment , i’ll email the passwords to u …

Just for your information .. he is asking me to reconsider as he doesn’t want to risk my life .. but my answer is - we’ll leave it and let God determine our future…

However, i think it has affected us in a good way because now we tend to understand each other better and without that barrier in his heart of risking my life … we are definitely more comfy with each other now…

.. and i should be arriving at the clinic waiting for my report..

this is getting really scary …

i always get this weird feeling … any report.. medical , school etc etc…

i’ll get nervous…

i think i’ve had enough of worrying ..

just pray hard that i’ll be fine then i will be able to sleep well tonight …

*pray pray pray*

Despite being really busy today …

i have to meet 21 candidates for interview … and pick up calls from KL for some verification … my mind is still floating around in the air .. just can’t seem to focus in my work

i have this urge to call the Dr to ask if my report is back and fly there to get it immediately .. but i know it will only reach him in the evening (earliest!) …

didn’t sleep well again … cannot help but to think about it ….

:’(

** i just called the Dr up .. he said report will be in by noon and i can collect it anytime.. however, i am at work now.. means i can only get it after work… I’m ultra worried ….sobs**

i know i’ve been trying hard to think nothing will happen , i will be fine ..

but .. deep in my heart , I’m very very worried..

what if i am really infected?

how am i going to tell my parents?

how ? how ? how?

i am definitely worried..last night , i didn’t sleep much , didn’t sleep well too …

if i am really infected, will i still be so generous to forgive him?

it may not be 100% his fault but ….. still…

i don’t know…

I’m not in the mood to chat with him …

it feels like , there’s a wall …

i don’t know if it is the PMS or i am blaming him deep down my heart or am i just worried ….

i guess i just need some space to myself

leave me alone… *tired*

Orlando vacations have always been my ideal place for holidays.  Reason is because i have this childish side of me where i told myself i want to visit all the Disneylands all around the world. Since my parents know about it , they have always been supportive but they are always busy , thus they encourage me to go with friends . Lately i found out from my colleague that she has this dream too. So , we have planned for our first trip to Orlando’s Disneyland, I’m sure we will have lots of fun!

He has the weirdest fetish on earth! One day , while we were doing our shopping around the mall , i saw this “I NEED SHOP” , i was curious to find out what’s sold there, thus i told the boyfriend to go in. He went in with me and suddenly he just walked to the corner where the French maid costumes are.he then asked if i will dress up to please him in future when i am his wife. You must be wondering why only when i become his wife? Because i have this principle where i hold very strongly to; which is no sexual contacts with anyone till he is my husband!I will definitely consider to dress up to please my hub in future.

After my suspicion to be infected by The Hepatitis B virus , i told myself i need to do something to protect my family just in case anything happens. I thought about getting a term life insurance. This is to ensure my family gets sufficient money if anything bad happens to me. There are so many different package to choose from , luckily i found this website , they are good at providing resourceful information. Also , i got an immediate reply from them when i send in a query email. Since then , i have never failed to recommend people around me to by their insurance policy from this website.

I really don’t understand what’s Miss T having in mind… i am curious.. i would like to know …

Yesterday i went out with her for tea and dinner but i was having a headache after the tea , i mean i could have tahan-ed but .. i chose to leave…because i think we are drifting apart..

I do not seem to know her that well anymore…

She is literally playing with this innocent guy , making him to pay for ALL her bills … and yet she told him that he doesn’t have to wait for her as she is not planning to settle down yet or if he really wants to wait, he can…. i mean … see? what’s she refering to? wait for me if you want.. doesn’t this mean that you are hinting it to him that there’s still a lil’ chance?

then i tried not to talk about it ..as i know we have different mentality when it comes to dealing with men.. later on , we just started to talk about work …

it was a boring topic . . but … i had no choice i do not want to talk about how she’s treating her male companions anymore…:)

At her work place, she is quite famous… because afterall i would say in that office , there isin’t many potential girls around… so she tend to be the centre of attraction * but the bf said she’s not pretty !! * … i do find her quite pretty at times .. but not always and it became worst when she started to make fun of men …

i admit previously i went out with many guys too.. but other than movie and food , they have never given me CASH or CREDIT CARD!!!

i am materialistic but not to the extend i will want a man’s credit card unless he is my special someone! hahah but if he is my special someone then i will make sure that i watch my expenditure as i do not want to overspend to burden him! get what i mean ?

is it that i am growing up and tend to think more ? i worry about friendships.. because as we grow older , true friendships tend to be very limited due to all sorts of commitments! i am glad that i still have good friends around ….

i’m now waiting for the boyfriend to wake up … then we will go and do some shopping ! Have a great Sunday ! oh no…praying hard that Monday Blues don’t come so early today !!

*hugs*

I was telling the boyfriend that my colleague is very “kerlian” ( poorthing) in the sense that he has been working for couple of years yet his pay doesn’t reach SGD 30k per annum!

How did i find out? i found out when we were chatting about the criteria to apply Credit card..

Plus he is married , renting a whole house! I was really thinking .. with such low pay , how can he survive?

i asked about his wife’s salary as well.. he said “total household income is less than SGD4.5k per month” that’s way below the average income in Singapore!

Boyfriend claimed that even our income will sum up to above average!! and we are couple years younger than the colleague . Also , i have just started working! hehe…

i felt bad for my colleague then the boyfriend consoled me , he said ” dear, you have yet to see the real world!in certain countries,no matter how hard they work , they still can’t feed their family ; they live in a poverty “  he added more ;saying that i am born with a silver spoon in mouth … but i guess that’s quite true to a certain extend…

anyways , yeah .. maybe i should travel to poorer countries more to experience the true life!

hooray , i’ll be able to go on a Cruise holiday soon! * maybe not so soon , but i will definitely do it!*  

First

He wanted to cut his hair , thus i tagged along! After he told the hair dresser how to cut blablabla, i laughed and told the hair dresser ” can you please change his hairstyle?” muahaha..the hair dresser laughed then gave his suggestion, i totally agree with the suggestion and asked him to cut it! The bf then asked ” my hair or your hair?” and i was like “do you see your hair more or do i see it more?” The poor bf had no choice but to agree with me because I said “CUT according to hairdressor’s idea” aahhaha .. so now he has a new hair not the old ah pek hairstyle anymore!

Second

He is a typical “banana” he knows nothing but just English and Malay .Very minimal of Mandarin and Canto ( he learnt these when he came to Singapore) .. But last night , i forced him to watch TVB drama with me and there’s NO subtitles! he managed to watch 3 episodes and finally he gave up! i am feeling extraordinary bad for making him suffer …

Third

I complain alot especially about his cleanliness … i mean he is clean himself but the room …. OMG ! dirtiest room i’ve ever entered! The first time i went , i really complaint about everything in the room from lights , bed , fan ,  wall, ceiling , window , closet , bin , deco etc etc…and worst still , that was AFTER him cleaning up!!! i cannot imagine how dirty it was before that! but thank god , his mommy came down last week and did a good job in cleaning up the whole house! or , i’ll die!

Forth

He is actually quite a thrifty person! but … haha not anymore because i make him use alot alot of money everyday!! yeah he has to bring me to nice nice dinner with Aircond , watch expensive movies at nice cinemas , take cab instead of bus/mrt , buy me gifts etc etc…. poor him , lucky me!!

Fifth

Haha.. though he just got his pay increment , but before he get to see the real money coming in , i’ve planned for him on how to spend already!! *evil!!*

LV wallet is coming … muahahaah

* and i just got a Long Champ bag today! woohoo.. the latest series… *

Yes i am 15 minutes late for work and SGD 10.45 poorer!!

i woke up at 9 am ( actually i was ready by 8 am , but i fell asleep after that ) … i got panicked! i called up the colleague and told her … then i quickly get changed then left home… i took a cab which costed me SGD10.45.. sobs… feel so poor now!! because office is just 4 MRT stops away .. normally MRT costs only SGD 1 ++ …yikes…

but it is ok… since i was late , i had no choice!

i was ultra tired because i had a long day yesterday 5.45 am till 2 am next morning …. from gym to work to dinner and movie ( The Dark Knight is simply too long) … Met a couple of Mr.Bf’s friends… quite friendly but still his bestfriend cum housemate is still the friendliest and nicest of all … others are all OK OK la…

I’m a not a very very sociable person when it comes to meeting strangers , so i always have to apologize to the BF for being unfriendly ! but .. once i feel comfy with them , i will be fine! especially since i have been tired lately … i really get annoyed having to “entertain” people.

anyways …. i got to go ..

Have a great Thursday!

I thought i will be ultra free today but .. no..

i came in , and i had to prepare some forms ..woohoo.. some investors who attending my Saturday’s event had called up to request for investment form ! so i had to prepare..

then later on , the boss called! and he is ANGRY ! muahahaha…

cos of the misleading publication by The Business Times on 22nd July 2008. So , i have to prepare a formal complain letter… and .. yeah …

i wrote it so nicely that i’m sure the reporter/journalist will “kena”(get it) from the head of news desk!  ** muahaha , i have the power of influencing the boss and fire the worker! Don’t make me angry ok? ** 

also , because the System in KL is down and all my associates are in KL , i will have to do the Operations job all by myself tomorrow and Friday … oh no….

i’m a busy girl! yes .. still a girl!

tonight i’m going to watch Dark Knight… 150 minutes?! oh no…. but i will enjoy myself!! hehe…

Have a great Wednesday

i was looking high and low for bed for my new room. However, i was attracted to the computer desks immediately upon entering their website. They are reasonable at price and the design is very pretty. I cannot control myself and bought one for myself also one for younger sister since hers is getting a little old. When they deliver over to her , she was so happy and surprised. According to her ,it is one of her best  birthday gift this year.So , you might consider getting one for your love ones as a gift as well.

Recently i have discovered something , my legs are getting flabby despite having to walk alot and going to the gym at least twice a week. I was trying to figure out the reason , however, i cannot seem to get the solution. Then i was asking around and surprisingly i got this information from my colleague that since she started wearing Fit Flops , her legs became slimmer!  I was curious at the same time did not believe it ,how can a pair of normal looking sandals creating a big impact and make your legs slim?! I did not buy it , but i continued to watch my colleague’s legs.

True enough, 2 weeks later, i saw a great change! her legs are slimmer! She then gave me this link to the website and told me , this is not an ordinary sandals, it is called the Fit Flop. Out of curiously , i went to do my research and found out that this Fitflops helps to tone , trim and tighten your legs! No gym trainings anymore. Thanks to the micro wobble-board technology , it give your a workout effect while you walk.This can then tone up your muscles and even your bum.

After reading that , a group of us (6 of us) immediately ordered the Fit Flops, it is estimated to arrive next week , i will definitely blog about the effect, stay tune for some toned legs and bum!

Yes! mission accomplished!!!!!!!

the feeling is so good … after a series of sleep-less night and stressful mind …

19th July - The Investment Event

21st July - The Media Conference

- The news on Channel News Asia

22nd July -Photo Shooting session

- The Live tv show ( Bloomberg and CNBC)

And now , i am all free! i told my boss bout my worries and stresses while we were in the cab… heheh and i asked him if i can rest for half a day! yeah .. he agreed by saying ” don’t rest too hard” and i replied with a “don’t work so hard!”

hhhhehe.. after both the live interviews , i had a lil coffee break with the boss at Starbucks before he flew off … it was great to chat with him especially when he is in his goody mood! Of course i was extremly cheerful and happy too! :0

So now , all i need to do is sit back and relax while reading the papers! it is such an awesome experience!! :)  and i am glad that everything went on smoothly and … i’m happy! hehehehe

argh! i hate to see my face whenever there is acne! i am lucky to be blessed with a quite clear face, hardly get any acne but till i came to Singapore, my face turned from alright to bad!

i hated the acne face so much that i had no choive but to apply more concealor to cover up when actually it is wrong!

Luckily i found this pimple cream . I find it really good as i got a clear face again after just 2 weeks .

… of the event is DONE!!

it was quite good… Straits times, Business times, Channel News Asia , Lian He Zao Bao , The Edge  and The Star attended!! The Star came all the way from KL

Tomorrow will be the final part of my event where i have to accompany my boss to CNBC and Bloomberg for live interview!

then i will be FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bravo…

tired tired tired… i can’t wait to rest …